who would have thought that something so beautiful could come from death?? as i was on my way home today, thats the thought that went through my head. fall is amazing, so georgeous, but its leaves dying. as those beautiful colors fly ever so delicately through the air, its death. i dont know, that just seems really interesting to me. i think that if you continue to overthink the suject, you may reach the same conclusion i eventually came to: its a good representation of Christ. God took an already perfect life, much like the leaves on the tree, and he had to die so that we could continue our not so perfect lives... it was a beautiful death. the leaves die because of a natural process and im not sure how (im no scientist) but im sure that somehow the process effects us and how we live, in a good way. its nice just to take a sec and just stop. stop and look at whats around you. i promise if you do this, your day will be different from that point on. it never ceases to blow my mind how beautiful this world God has made is. this was no accident.
back to the fall subject: simply, my FAVORITE season. it seems so magical to me. in addition to the amazing, changing leaves constantly surrounding you so that there is no escape from their beauty, there is just a nice atmosphere. perhaps its the cozy colors, or the warm smells of pumpkin and spice, or the fact that there are favorite holidays approaching, fall just has this "air" of enjoyment! thanksgiving is by far my favorite holiday. think about it. the only obligation you have is to sit around a table with the people God has blessed you with to do none other than my favorite hobby: EAT (and you get to eat the best food at that!). though i'm already counting down the days to thanksgiving, i fear this years "magical" day. its the first thanksgiving, or any holiday really, since my dad left. its just me and my mom this year. no friends, no family, just us. granted i love her and am so thankful for her, im just nervous. nervous that this could potentially ruin my favorite holiday because the high expectation i naturally form based on past experiences. as much as i will try to not let that happen, im scared it will. i will of course not let my mom know that; i will seem happy, and i honestly will try to be, but i constantly worry about her happiness, which consequently makes me feel responsible because i cant fix or help her. i hope that the holiday wont bring back memories, which we know it will, that will hurt my mom. but i cant enter into the season with that attitude. lets stay positive! this time we can create new traditions! we can do whatever we want with no one to tell us we cant. heck, we could go out to dinner for thanksgiving... whatever! i think that, though i like the tradition i am used to for this day, i must accept the change. and though it may not be a change i am completely happy about, i must go into it with an open mind. otherwise, there is no hope for it to be fun or happy at all... i have to give it a chance. just like the season. the leaves change, the weather changes, the atmosphere changes, and lets be honest, its beautiful. but, if you automatically think thats it will be awful, you cant take the time to just stop and enjoy the creation God has set before you.
so i encourage you to remember this with any changes that might be occuring within your life. they may appear difficult, or hard, but if you look at them with a christian perspective and remember that God uses everything for his will, if you at least attempt to see the brighter side, your entire life will seem that much better!!
yeah the gramatical errors thing i said before.. i lied.. it happened again.. i will work on it.